The Search For Kathea, A Leap Into A New Beginning, Iriisii and Desidarius?

 The Search For Kathea, A Leap Into A New Beginning, Iriisii, And Desidarius?

      Ilyria is euphoric to have Iriisii all to herself. It has been too long since the last opportunity, no one's fault, just how things happened. But she is taking full advantage. Now she has fallen asleep once more, secure in the arms of her mate and lover. And now Iriisii waits to hear a whisper from Desidarius, wondering how this conversation is going to go.

     'You patiently wait for me, thank you.'

     'You have been silent for so long, although I have felt your presence within Illyria. I must admit, I am curious as to how this to going to proceed.'

     'We have been speaking, talking about what happened, why it happened, seeking to understand how to coexist in this new situation. I do not seek to supplant Illyria, I see far too many opportunities, different paths to what we both want that will not harm either of us. I also see more clearly what it is I want and need.'

     'And what is that?'

     'You know.'

     'Yes, but I want to hear you say it.'

     'You. Ah now I see, I sense the feeling that just came over you when I admitted that I want and need you. It makes me feel like I have never felt toward anyone before.'

     'Do you remember when I sang to you?'

     'How could I ever forget, I am still torn over it.'

     'I do not blame you for that, it is something that has plagued me ever since.'

     'Why has it plagued you?'

     'Because I did not understand until much later, that every word I sang to you, I sang from my heart and soul.'

     'So long have I wondered about that, was it truly your feelings or was it simply to deceive me. Now that I know, I can feel myself healing. It is a strange feeling, yes, but I can now realize how much I have needed it.'

     'It was not easy for me to admit I had a 'dark side' that needed attention, needed pleasure, needed pain, needed seduction, needed all that you could provide. And now I know that it is not just my 'dark' side that needs you, but all of me that needs you.'

     Desidarius is silent for a moment, 'you do not know what your words mean to me. To hear you say that and mean it with all of the truth within you...what is this that builds within me now?'

     'It is called 'hope', and it is one of the most powerful forces in Creation. It can do things that are otherwise considered impossible.'

     'What could it do for me, for us?'

     'Build a bridge between us, forge a path for the both of us to walk together, literally anything we can imagine together, 'hope' can do, if we empower it with our belief.'

     Iriisii feels the emotional tears Desidarius is letting go of, no longer trying to hold them back.

     'I want this! I want this with all of my being! I want you! I care not that I would have to share you with others. If it means I can have you with me, then I will share you. But...'

     'Tell me what concerns you?'

     'I am just a part of Illyria, how can we be together, just us, for whatever time we can make just for each other. I...'

     'There is a very deep need within you. I see it, but you need to bring it out. You need to speak of that need to me. Then we can see what 'hope' and 'belief' can do to make it happen for us.'       

     'I want to experience you in a body of my own, not through someone else, but I do not want to harm Illyria by doing this. She has been very supportive of me, even though I have no right to expect that of her.'

     'I see your point and your need. The question I must ask is would you want the separation to be permanent or just for periods of time when we can be together?'

     'If I said permanent, what would be the effect on Illyria? I do not want to hobble her in any way. I do not want to cause her to hurt or harm. But I had what I felt to be my own body for so long that I cannot envision anything else.'

     'I understand. You are not the normal 'dark' side that all mortals have within them to one extent or another. You came into being by the machinations of another. And so it just may be possible to create a body for you to inhabit as yours, without harming Illyria. Her natural 'dark' side went dormant when you came into being because you became the dominant personality and so it was not needed. If you were to absent yourself into another body, it would reawaken and begin to grow.'

     'Then how would I fit into your life after acquiring my own body?'

     'That would be the question on everyone's mind. I believe it would be possible to solve it, but there would be some restrictions. Ones already imposed by the 'Mother of the Cosmos' to ensure the balance between all of my mates, so that they do not become overbalanced in power.'

     'What do you mean by restrictions?'

     'You are aware Dettlaff is my Vyrkolos?'

     'Yes, but what does that have to do with this?'

     'As my Vyrlolos, a part of our relationship involves the sharing of blood between us. This allows me to raise him in power to a point where we will be equals in power. As he has a certain destiny of his own to reach that requires that level of power. None of my other mates are allowed to share blood with him, only me. But I believe that it is allowable for me to share blood with my other mates as long as there is no power boost. Though none of them have expressed an interest in this with me, I think that you might be interested.'

     'Why would I be interested?'

     'Because it would enhance the pleasure and passion we would experience together to whole new levels. You are basically Aasimar as am I, while Dettlaff is a 'Higher Vampire'. With the two of us, there should be no power transference as there is with him. And so as long as you share no blood with him, there would be no problem with our sharing. As I have said the others have no interest in that with me, and I do find it exceedingly pleasurable.' They can share physical sex with him, but so far they have shown no desire to do so, and he as well has no desire for them in that way. We would have to see if that would extend to you as well.'

     'I understand, I have no desire toward him, all of my desire is toward you and has always been that way.'

     'Then I will speak to the others and see what they have to say, then I will consider everything and make a decision. I will likely also seek the Mother's guidance as well. There are a lot of unknowns in this and she can help me unravel them. I know she has no agenda about you entering my family, either for or against, so I can trust her counsel to be neutral. Also, I do need to bring this up and it may help influence this decision.'

     'What is that?'

     'There is no restriction on any of my other mates from seeking their own Vyrkolos to share blood with, as long as it is not Dettlaff. I believe Illyria may be considering asking Regis if he would be interested in her. If so, this could open the way for me to bring you out into your own body, to maintain the balance between all of us.'

     'Then there could be a good chance of this happening?'

     'I believe so, yes.'

     'I..I..can hardly believe it! So long I have pined for you, to now possibly be able to actually touch you, be touched by you.'

     'You do not have to say more, I feel it as it flows through you, singing your desire with every heartbeat. Hold yourself tight, there is something I can do to give you a preview of sorts of what it could be like for us.'

     Iriisii uses her power to first isolate Illyria's quarters, then to superimpose a pocket dimension on top of the quarters. In effect, allowing her the ability to reach into Illyria and bring Desidarius out without moving to another location. At first, Desidarius is unsure of herself, her physical form, what she looks like. Iriisii takes a few moments to help her sort it all out.

     'Think of how you want everyone else to see you.'

     'But I only care about how you see me.'

     'And I care only about how you want to be seen. You just need to begin, we can adjust your presence later, but there must be a starting point.'

     Desidarius does as Iriisii asks and begins to bring how she sees herself out to this form. As it takes stock, she is just maybe one size larger in her breasts than Iriisii, while her waist is barely larger, her legs are slimmer, but longer by an inch or so. Her torso is thinner, showing muscles more than Iriisii, but not overly so. Her arms are also just a little longer, fingers slimmer.

     Her face is slightly longer, with features more exotic. Eyes more angled and open in the center. Her eye color, a very exotic and captivating blue-violet, her hair long to her waist, glossy, and midnight black. Her ears, rounded but with just a hint of a vertically oriented tip, her cheekbones firm, slender. Her nose is slender as well, with just a slight upturn at the tip. Her jaws even and proportional, her lips, full, but not puffy, a little wider than Iriisii's, and in Iriisii's mind completely kissable, delicious to nibble on, and sensitive enough to drive Desidarius to distraction when she decides to run her tongue along their length, using just enough pressure to barely part them.

     As Desidarius comes back to herself she looks at Iriisii and asks, 'how do I look?" As she looks again at Iriisii, she so uncharacteristically gives a shy facial expression as she sees Iriisii's eyes smolder with rising desire and passion. That expression drives all restraint from Iriiisii, as she takes Desidarius in her arms.

     She feels tremors in her muscles as Iriisii slides her hands from Desidarius shoulders down to her waist and keeps going. Squeezing gently with her hands, she shivers as Desidarius moans in her ears. She cannot help herself as she pulls Desidarius up high and whispers to her to wrap her legs around her back.

     Iriisii morphs a portion of herself into 'male' mode, and slowly lowers Desidarius until she feels the difference there.

     'Do you want me to continue? If you do not, I will change back and we will go on.'

     'How can you do that?'

     'Just trust that I can and am in complete control.'

     'Have you...?'

     'Just once with Rigmor, that is how she came to give birth to our child, Sotdovahyolus.'

     'You mean you can...?

     'Only if you want to be with child again. Wait until we have a proper body for you, then we can talk about it then.'

     'I understand, go on then and let me feel you.'

     As Iriisii lowers Desidaius still further, neither can take the pressure any longer and Iriisii places Desidarius on her back, even as Desidarius arches and cries out, 'please, do not stop!'

     Later, Iriisii restores her body to full female and things continue once more for both of them. Both are physically exhausted at this point, but neither wants the closeness to end. Iriisii still has trouble believing what she has seen and felt with what she just experienced with Desidarius, but she cannot deny the need in both of them. Then Desidarius asks the question Iriisii knew was going to come up with but was not certain how to answer.

     'I have not felt 'his' presence in some time, do you know what if anything has happened to 'him'?'

     She thinks it best to just tell her the truth, she deserves to know in any case.

     'I and some others traveled to the far north beyond the city called Novigrad. There we entered and proceeded under a mountain. We had gone in search of a gate by which I was told I could return to Nirn. Instead, we encountered a cavern covered in lower vampires. We almost decimated them, when they were called off by a 'Higher Vampire'. He thought we were the cause of a 'Hunter' being let loose within the cavern system preying on the vampires.'

     'What would be strong enough to prey on vampires? And would require a higher to find out what it was?'

     Iriisii is silent for a moment.

     'Something that terrible, I see.'

     'It was a 'Fly-the-Light'.'

     'How did something like that get down there? They do not live anywhere near any of the worlds we know.'

     'It was summoned by something or someone else. Even now after only recently finding how it was summoned there, I still do not know who did it or why.'

     'You decimated the lesser vampires, what about the 'higher'?'

     'He left us in peace when he determined we were not the ones who brought it there.'

     'It was then that 'he' showed his face. I almost think one of the highest, led me into that situation, to confront 'him'.'

     'Why do you say that?'

     'Because sometime earlier, before I even was called to 'Pandemonium' by the Psigic Order to deal with 'Orphis', I was sent in search of the 'blades' you forged.'

     'WHAT?! You were sent after those 'blades'?'

     'Yes, it was not until I found them and defeated the demons inhabiting them. That I learned their history, their purpose, and worst of all, that this was not the first time I encountered them.'

     'Now I remember, I am so sorry. Your first encounter was in the memories you bartered your escape from the Sinister Seven with. I really do not even know why I asked that price, I had no need for them.'

     'I pieced it all together over the years, after other things happened, after more that I learned. You were manipulated just as I was. I guess you did not even know why you dropped me on the border between Cyrodiil and Skyrim, right in the middle of the Civil War.'

     'Now that you mention it, no I did not. It just came to me out of the blue.'

     'It was as I later came to think, it was Akatosh who caused you to place me there. So that I would be captured and taken to Helgen, lure Alduin there. Where he would sense my presence, come to see who I was, and interrupt the execution proceedings by destroying the town. He intended to make certain I was killed, but he only ensured my escape. It is ironic, if he had only flown off, I would have been executed by the Empire for being at the wrong place at the wrong time.

     Instead, my feet were placed on the path that would see me find him in Sovngarde and kill him with the help of the spirits of the three tongues that first banished him into the streams of time. And even little more did I or Akatosh know that his efforts were being nudged by another even greater, for other purposes that would come into play later.'

     'The 'Mother of the Cosmos'?'

     'Yes. She guided my steps under that mountain where I found 'him', or maybe 'he' found me. It really matters not which way it was. Letho, Geralt, and I did battle with him, and eventually pinned him against the cavern wall, where I used 'your' blades and drove both of them into his stinking body.'

     'What happened next?'

     'The souls previously trapped within the blades were released so that 'his' severed soul could not use them as a means to escape. When Darius' soul was released, he came and spoke to me, explained what was happening.'

     'I am so sorry, I did not know he had touched them before you summoned me.'

     'I know, it was not because of any plan of your devising that this played out the way it did.'

     'What did you do with 'his' body and the blades?'

     'I contacted Azura and asked if she would transport an unlocked Dwemer lockbox from the ice cave where Septimus Signus, had found it and later asked me to find the materials to make a key, and open it. That request was the price he asked for information to the location of an Elder Scroll I was seeking for another task. He lost his life in the opening of it when he discovered the 'Oghma Infinium' of Hermaeus Mora within.

     Anyway, Azura transported it to me in the cavern, along with a quantity of 'void metal' ingots and two caskets also made of void metal, that part was at the request of Boethiah. I placed the blades, each within one of the caskets, 'his' body, within the lockbox, filled it with the void metal ingots, and closed the lockbox, locking it again for all time, since, with the death of Septimus, the secret of creating another key was lost. I used Dragonfire to forge the remaining ingots into sheets, and welded them together to cover the outside of the box.'

     'Is it still down under the mountain?'

     'No, it is tucked away within the 'Keep of the First Ones' that I have placed in the very bottom of this tower. Sometime later, the Black Emperor sent some of his lackeys to find 'him' and take him back before the Emperor. I stopped that plan and moved 'him' into the "Keep of the First Ones, which I have since relocated in the bottom level of this tower.'

     'The 'Black Emperor', that utter bastard.'[

     'What did he do to you to cause such anger?'

     'Better you not know.'

     'As you will, if you should ever wish to talk of it, I will listen. As I said before, the 'Keep' itself has been set up into a second command bridge, in which the sister to the 'Mother' lives. I intend to release her to go her way when it is safe to let her go.'

     'When will that be, if I may ask?'

     'In all likelihood, when I have imprisoned Sithis himself within a Mantella, reinforced by a Winterstorm Construct formed around the Mantella.'

     'You do not do anything in half measures, do you?'

     'No, I do not. You will soon find out for yourself just what you have placed yourself in the middle of, because of your desire for me.'

     'Trust me when I say, it is in my opinion worth everything that comes my way, to reforge a relationship with you. I...love you, and have ever since you sang that song to me, and I do not regret anything that has happened to bring us together once more.'

     'Then we will move forward with that as our goal. I will speak to the others and see where they stand. If they agree, I will ask that you marry all of us and become a full partner in our family. If any do not agree, I will still ask that you marry me, and be a mate to me alone.'

     'You...mean...that? you want to marry me?'

     'Yes, I mean this, with all of my heart!'

     'I do not know what to say.'

     'You need to say nothing for now. I still must do a few things before we can go forward, but as soon as I can do this, we will, I promise.'

     'I have worried so that you would blame me for so much of what happened and so hate me. Yet Illyria told me that that was not the case, that you had learned so much of the truth of what happened, why it happened, why we were the ones chosen to play roles in it. I am just so happy to see that she was right, even though I could not shed the fear until I heard forgiveness in your voice and felt it in your touch.'

     'Yes, there was a time when I did feel such rage and anger. But as I learned so much, asked questions of those I met. I came to realize you were as much a victim as I felt myself to be. Then my anger toward you melted away as of late snow on an early spring day. I would still remember how you looked at me, and I felt plagued by remorse at my deception of you. Then even more so when I realized that you had touched me as I had touched you. That the song I sang to you came from my soul, and that a part of me stayed in constant pain over the hurt I caused you.'

     'My love, for you, are my love, never more need you to be in pain and remorse. For it brought us full circle, back to each other again, this time wiser in what we feel toward each other. This time we can go around the things we did to cause each other pain, this time we can go in a completely different direction. This time we do not hide our feelings from each other, but rather bring them out, explore them, act on them, to enjoy what we each have for the other.'

     'I never thought in all of my mortal life that I would discover how much that love is a part of the 'dark' as it is the 'light', and that in much it brings us closer together if only we would let ourselves see it as I see you at this moment.'

     'You have been so very patient with me to spend so much time just with me. We are soon to be where we should be, and so your place is on the Bridge. Go my love, and do what your duty calls you to do. I will go back to Illyria and sleep, dreaming of you and a new life for us both.'

     Iriisii releases the dimensional bubble, as Desidarius flows back into Illyria. She goes and places a gentle kiss on Illyria's forehead, stands, walks out into the corridor, and heads for the Bridge. 'I truly do not know how all of this is going to work out, but somehow I feel it is meant to be. That there are still parts we have to play, and all of it will come together in what form, I do not know, but we will do what we must to bring it about. The others will understand or they will not, I do however understand that I love her and she loves me. And that force will play an important part in what comes.'